cuttersconfessions:

I hate who I’ve become

i am not very smart when I’m drunk hahaha i really hate myself and kind of miss a boy a i shouldn’t miss… 

i have an essay that have to be ready by tomorrow but can’t focus.. but i have to do it somehow!! today i had my psychology appointment. it went well i think but I’m just talking and are not getting any solutions. it makes me tired. she said it would be got if i saw her one more time this week but then said she didn’t have time.. so basically your going to tell me I need more help but I’m not going to get it? confusing.. anyways, i think its good that i go there, maby in the end things will be sorted out. i just feel low, i want to be in bed hugging my best friend, not sit here with work to do and a really slow brain. well well, thats life! hope y’all are oK tonight!

confessionsaboutselfharm:

1627) Today I sat in the window of my apartment and I was thinking .. and if I jump?

I just want to say, what i write here are just my darkest thoughts, that i can’t share anywhere else. And maby it’s not right, but its good for me to keep track on my thoughts i guess. but, i don’t want to set an example, and that people who read this will think it’s ok to do what i do. because it’s not ok that you hurt yourself. you do not deserve it. but you know, i understand.

please remember, you are worth the best, every inch of you. and things WILL change, I promise. it might take a while but it will, and you will be happy. so stick around until then, it will be worth it. you’re still young and i know this for sure, these feelings will not last forever. this to shall pass. you are beautiful, your soul is beautiful, please take care. 

i’m clean for 3 days now, it’s actually a good feeling…